Why are we compelled to spin our reality to hide so much? We hide our hurts and sometimes our joys. We hide our weaknesses. We hide feelings. Why do we even have secrets? Is there really any value in hiding the truth? We live in a world that prepares us to have lots of secrets, to hide things so that we maintain what we have (or the illusions that make us feel secure). One of the things about honesty is that it costs you. I'm talking about being honest in all life, beginning with myself. I know how to make things sound different that than they are. That's what I'm seeking to shed. Secrecy is a painful thing becuase you're living with an inconsistency. Honesty is painful when you have to deal with the consequences of truth. Yet, at least in honesty you walk away with the integrity of your heart. Truth sets us free even when the truth hurts.
Lately, I feel like I'm being pounded on an anvil. It's an anvil of formation in this area. It hurts to be honest. But, I'd rather be honest with myself, God, and my relations than to hide behind the spin of self-preservation.
I'm seeing life increasingly through a lens of my contribution toward goodness, life, and grace and then my efforts that take away from these things. I'm only one life, just like any of us. And I want my life to be given toward positive contributions of the whole. That's the way of Jesus of Nazareth, whom I'm patterning my life after. So it seems to me that being a citizen of the whole is a choice that you can't assume. And it's the path I've chosen to follow.
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Honesty is water to the soil of life. As we love one another, honesty is the door way to unity.
I am glad that you are a man walking in the way of honesty my dear brother. Your weakness is our strength, because in your weakness the ONE who makes us ONE is revealed.
In my eyes your are a picture of emerging strength. Unity is worth it,
Ken McCord
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